New Beginning- A poem

New Beginnings

I see you across the room
I love you
and hate you at the same time
why do you mess with me, my equilibrium. the mediocrity that i am so happily used to? Tons of people in the room
It is so easy not to engage with you
But you're too attractive to miss.
I resist you, I avoid you
I want you.
I play hard to get.
We lock eyes
And then I shift my gaze.
Why don't you come after me?
I may not really want you.
I feel listless, unsure.
You may not really like me.
I'm good at first impressions.
But after that?
Am i good enough to sustain your long-term interest?
You know what, I'm just going to leave this party early.
I'm tired
and I could do with some TV.
Wait, you're coming toward me!
My friends are urging me to speak with you.
"Don't screw this up!", she says. He really likes you.
Fuck! I'd better stay then.
New beginnings, you are good looking.
Maybe you'll buy me a drink.
Maybe I should buy you a drink?